Menage a deux

So far, I have told 10 people.  3 straight males.  1 butch.  1 bi girl.  And 5 straight girls.  I am actually in a bit of a competition with the butch to see who can tell the most people.  She might actually be winning--but not by her own intention.  I have told all 10 of my people.  She has told 7 intentionally--one of which told two other people, making her total 9.  She recently wrote about it on a college app.  She thought it would go straight to the college, but her guidance counselor checked over her application.  So 10 people (that she knows) know about her sexuality.  Technically, we are tied.  But I think I'm winning.

Anyway, why can't more guys be bi or gay?  Life has been disheartening lately.  I've told myself that I am just going to wait until college before I get into any relationships.  But it's definitely a challenge to live romantically alone.  Especially as a teenager.

Lately, I have considered proposing friends with benefits with one of my best male friends.  I don't think he would be offended or weirded out (that's why it is an option to propose it at all).  I told him I was gay a week ago.  And I decided that I would wait at least 1 month before proposing friends with benefits.  But yeah, waiting is not a fun game.  Barriers, why?

As far as a social life goes, life has been minimum.  School has been kicking my ass.  I have AP Calculus, AP Literature and Composition, and Honors Physics.  Calculus homework every night.  Essays, and all sorts of reading shit for English.  Not to mention our research paper due Monday.  And finally, large homework assignments in Physics and huge (6-15 pages typed) lab reports (which the teacher is incredibly picky about).  Also, I am performing medical research in my spare time: lately, I have been so busy that I cannot do that much.

A note about my English research paper: My gaydar for literature is functioning properly.  I DEFINITELY remarked one day while reading, "Oh, wow.  That sounds really gay.  I think my author is gay."  I looked it up, and sure enough, he has gay themes throughout his books and stuff.  Joseph Conrad, btw.  I have more to say about my topic than can be well-expressed in the space given, but I think my paper will be good.  The rough draft is complete.  I just have to edit and finagle in some citations.  I would rather just write about things that I picked up on in the book, but apparently that is not good enough for literary analysis: I must have other sources than just my books.  I am not allowed to have my own ideas.

Questions? Questions? Does anyone have any questions?

School in 1984

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First day of my high school final year tomorrow! I'll be a senior!! Kind of excited. Also, 1984 is a rather technical book.

Anyway, enjoy your life!

Finals 2

We had the Latin 3 and Chemistry 2 finals today.  I got a pretty good grade on the Latin test, a 100 on the Precal final, and an 85 on the Chem final.  So I'm pretty happy about that.  That means all A's this semester.  Yay.  I'm relieved the school year is over, but I'm kind of bored with life at the moment.  However, the Spongebob Squarepants episode where Patrick and Spongebob raise the baby scallop is on.  And after testing in Chem, I felt super confident in that I actually understood the subject matter (I never studied or did homework through the semester so I was a little shaky throughout, but now I get it).  The stuff wasn't that tough, and it didn't seem that hard throughout the semester, but now it seems so easy. 

Oh, and I have officially topped my number of pageviews from last month.  Woot woot!! So yeah, good happiness and whatnot.

Habete felices ferias!

Finals

Today and tomorrow, we will be having finals.  I had English and pre-calculus today.  The precal was easy as could be.  I finished the test in twenty, maybe thirty, minutes.  And the English was comprised of two essays: a general argument essay and a rhetorical analysis.

I finished the rhetorical analysis feeling really good about it, but the general argument essay was pretty bad.  I didn't even finish (I just scrapped one of my body paragraphs and wrote a hasty conclusion). The essay was about the "vital role" of humorists in today's political society.  So I argued that yes, humorists are essential. I cited an episode of the Colbert Report as well as the Colbert Report and the Daily Show as examples of satirical humorists that spread information as well as reveal the initiatives of the various parties.  The episode I cited of the Colbert Report was how Republicans use 9-11 all the time, and then at one point said that they shouldn't be helping the 9-11 first responders after they had used the 9-11 first responders to get so many legislations passed.  I also argued that I would not have otherwise been aware of that information and that now I am informed at least a little bit.  I argued that it is an interesting way to spread information and allows the many a way to escape the rule by the few.  But I didn't have much info to go by so I had to BS it and I didn't really want to use Family Guy or Southpark because those are way more extreme than other sources.  At least the Colbert Report and the Daily Show focus primarily on politics.

The rhetorical analysis essay was of Lincoln's Second Inaugural Address.  I made the argument that Lincoln meant the address as the starting point for reunification.  And he used emotional diction, religious symbols and allusions as well as parallel structure as the main points.  I talked about how he used the parallelism as the icing that joined together the emotion of the speech with the situation and the fact that he talked to both sides as if they were the sinners who had just atoned for their sins with the Civil War and that he wanted them to look to the future.  I cited specific instances and used a lot of quotes together with purpose analysis.  So it seems like the Rhetorical analysis essay would be an A, whereas the general argument would probably be a C or B at best. 

The English isn't really a final though because it is a combined class with US history that lasts all year instead of one semester.  I have a 99 in precal and I get 3 extra points added to my score at the end.  So that is an easy A.  In English I have a 91 and I get 5 extra points at the end because it is AP.  Whereas I don't need the points for precal and it just seems superfluous; I actually need the extra points for English.  By the end of the year, I should have an A in that class, though.  Next semester is just literature, I think; so it should be easy from here on out.

Tomorrow I have Latin 3 and Honors Chemistry 2.  I have a ridiculously high score in Latin; so that shouldn't matter at all.  The Chemistry I actually have to try in though.  I have a 95 or something, and even though I have 3 extra points, I still have to get something like a 70 to keep my A.  The only reason I am worried is because I have not done that great on tests this year.  So I'm hoping that the State final will be really easy.  I will still be studying pretty hard, but just something easy would be greatly appreciated.  It doesn't help that my teacher has been away from school for the past two weeks and will not be coming back this semester.  So we have to rely on the Chemistry I teacher for whatever questions we have.